Robert has done something terrible. He has begin the ritual Summoning of the Worm. I hear him calling to me join him each night. I know he is dead, and yet I hear him calling me in my dreams. I must be mad. I can't stand the thought of rejoining him. It all seemed so fun -- silly games and good sex when I joined the Church of Light and Darkness. I fear for my soul. I don't think they are really gone. I havn't slept for days and I am going mad. If I doze off I wake within minutes screeming. They are in my head. I can't live this way. It has to end. I wish I could find that abominable Book and destroy it. That would fix things. It must be in the basement. I'm afraid.